A blog post inspired by cookies

   Hi everyone, how are you doing.  Today is Thursday. I have been writing some blog posts and trying to get through some spells of mental illness and seizures.  I think some of my recent problems were partially triggered by the heat wave in New York City. But I am okay and have air conditioning.  I have an idea for people without air conditioning, which was my situation for a few years and very difficult.  Something I did not think of then was to put my sleeping bag in the refrigerator for a while and then take it out to sleep on it in some way. I think that is a great idea that not many people have thought of. The other thing that helped me was freezing bottled cokes, like in the plastic bottles, and then drinking them while also using them as ice packs for your face.

   That is actually not all I have to say. Really I have a bunch of crazy religious stuff to say, and what triggered this episode was not just the heat but legal intimidation. The legal threats and monitoring problems have been happening to me for several years and scared me recently when a bad person came and sat right across from me at the YMCA and tilted his ear to indicate that he was listening to my muttering from disorganized schizophrenia and trauma.

    But I am doing okay and am going to try to eat some food and maybe take more medicine. But it is not fair for me to have to take extra medicine because people hurt me. That is simply not fair. They did it with Depakote, they tried it with Trileptal, and now they want me to have to take more Risperdal and be a disgruntled zombie. But the good people and God are not going to let them get away with it. That is why I am going to just keep living like normal and read some poetry and take care of my pet guinea pigs that know exactly what is going on.

 a theme song of my medicine:  bad wolves- zombie

Soccer Goal Post

     Well everyone, I hope you are having a nice day.  Today I went to the mall and got tired and came home. While I was there, I learned on my phone that the US women’s soccer team won the world cup and destroyed every other nation on earth, leaving demolished wastelands with nothing left but steam and fire, kind of like the CD covers from middle school. I am happy for them and proud. It is something for our country to feel good about.  I think it should count as an election and we could have a new surge of problem solving.

    Anyway this reminds me to say a little idea which is that I thought of an interesting name for a church which would be something like Apocolyptic Nightmare Baptist Church.  I really think that some people could not resist finding out what it is all about.

    Today I read an article about a Holocaust survivor who died and had shared a quote that said “forgiveness is the best revenge.”  I find that quote to be very inspirational.  I do not really need to go into it but I am finding myself very capable of praying for people’s forgiveness for major violations but still am having trouble in the moment when people show disrespect from powerful positions, like if there is inappropriate music in a store.  When that happens, I get mad and see no redemptive quality about them whatsoever, though in my free time I am able to pray for very bad people sometimes who have really ruined my life multiple times over.  It can be confusing, but in a way it is not.  It confirms the teaching that I learned early on which is that no one should think of themselves as being too innocent.  Everyone needs forgiveness, and we do not always know the extent of how our faults and failures hurt other people.

    But we also do not know the full impact of just our participation and staying alive, either.  That is why I am about to eat some peach cobbler.