The secret messages are saying this robot is me.

  

   I am not sure why, but it does make sense if I stop and think about space movies of the 80s. Today I ate some rice and beans and enchilada sauce. I still have some cheese and sour cream, and some cooked ground chicken, so it was a Mexican feast. I am wondering what is happening with the government coronora virus bill.  I think a simple stimulus check for every American would have been good about five days ago, and some of us probably could have found a way to help the immigrants too.  But it seems that there is another political hold-up.

   My church’s service online this morning was great, so that is good. But then some people persecuted me for having memory problems. That is why my writing is choppy.

   Speaking of choppy, a great tv show online is called Chopped. They share free whole episodes on the website from Food Network. 

   I am losing some weight from rationing food. I think that is good and I invented a kind of wacky jumping jacks to stay active during my weeks sheltering down in NYC. I am happy for all the volunteers and workers out in the city right now showing a very inspiring and sacrificial love for people, but I think I might need to stay healthy indoors and sell my e-books soon.

   Well have a great day everyone. If any of you are truly experiencing some kind of unbearable misery right now, I pray with all my heart that you are given some food and peace and hope as soon as possible in a mostly permanent or at least stable way.

I genuinely apologize for hoarding cake mix.

I probably do not need 6 boxes. I just panicked and ordered from Wal-Mart when we currently have enough food in my neighborhood. Some people in rural areas probably really need their food delivered and I did not mean to hurt anyone or myself. I just freaked out and imagined myself eating cake every day for several weeks. In order to learn my lesson I will try to eat a whole cake so fast that I am sickened by the experience. No really I hope you all have enough food right now and it you ever support charities, now is probably the time to help other people get some backup food or food at all. 

Rations

Well everyone, coronoravirus is not going to stop me from eating Easter candy every day for lent. And it seems to be a good excuse to learn how to cook beans, which I bought at the grocery store to prepare for any kind of shutdown or quarantine. I boiled some of the beans today to use for soup or chili but learned that really you have to soak the beans for several hours.  And really overnight is the goal.  But I am trying to speed the process so I soaked them for an hour after boiling them for a few minutes, and then added a mixture of cooked ground turkey with chicken soup and peanut butter and cooked it on low heat for a while. I decided to keep a lot of the bean water still in the mixture and am hoping the beans soak up the water in the next few hours so it ends up as a chili and not just a soup.  I think it is working.  I think using my other favorite ingredients of honey, mustard powder, and worschester sauce is going to create an interesting chili. I added a can of corn, too. I am not sure if all the flavors will mix in a good way with cream of chicken soup, but I think it is good experience to make a whole pot of chili. Sadly, I added garlic early on but I think I have enough other flavors for that not to mess it up. I think if this chili effort doesn’t work, I will make a normal chili next time with the next bag of beans, using more of the traditional tomato sauces and chili spices that people use. I have some sour cream and cheese so I think this could end up being kind of an indulgence instead of what I thought it was which was me cooking some beans as if I lived in a cabin somewhere and went to the general store only a few times a year. A lot of apocalypse movies and Judgement Day paintings don’t show the pots of chili and the marshmallow bunnies and chocolate sauce, which is my next defense against the pandemic.

What should you do if you see one of these:

It looks like a coronoravirus doesn't it. I found it online when I was searching for images of suction cup kooshballs that look like coronoravirus. I thought it could be good for a tweet, but the photo was blurred once I tried to upload it.  I have been wondering if there is a conspiracy where some of the tech company control freaks are doing things like costing people likes on purpose or making the faces on videos have ugly expressions captured in the freeze frame. But there is no reason to be too paranoid.  What people should be paranoid about is that tomorrow morning there is a visiting nurse from my insurance plan coming to my apartment to talk to me about my condition and medicine.  And I do not know whether it really is someone trying to help me, or if instead it is a legal shark from the barnes and noble people who have been harassing me and following me with legal intimidation.  If the visitor doesn't shoot me and instead turns out to actually be someone from the insurance program, even then are they really trying to help me or is it some kind of investigation in disguise as a way of reducing medicaid recipients.  Well this person will literally smell a rat because there are some dead mice in my apartment. But hopefully it will be fine.  I just now felt suicidal.  Medicaid paperwork and insecure benefits make me feel that way, and interestingly, a lot of the legal intimidation seems to be focused on my spending and transaction records. I think it could be a problem for them that it increases pressure about something that already causes me so much distress.  I think that could change the category of the crime, which has now been going on for over 10 years and involves many more people than I would have guessed would want to sign up to be the bad guys in a morality play that uses actual damnation.

Daylight Food Time

    Well everyone, I hope you are having a nice day. I am in New York City after a trip to visit my parents and my sister’s family in Greenville, SC. It was a great trip and I am thankful that I got to go there and to be back before the main coronora virus problems.

     My gallbladder has recently been bothering me on purpose and I will probably have to have it removed soon.  But so far I am okay if I avoid certain foods. But some things you can’t avoid, like reeses peanut butter eggs and chicken with cream sauce. And coke and coffee and jelly beans, marshmallow peeps, and cookies.

    Anyway I find that the coronora fears are a nice addition to my anxiety disorder and I am not freaking out too much.  I am just going to try to wash my hands and make sure I do my part to minimize the contagion. And I am not going to scream “coronoravirus” in a crowded building.

    Something exciting right now is that I started using a lava lamp that I got myself for Christmas a couple of years ago.  It is working great and I am happy because I wanted one as a kid and now I finally have one.  It is so cool and I am glad I did not get one as a kid because I probably would have become a scientist instead of a poet.

    Well have a great day everyone. See you all at the hand sanitizer stores.