Well everyone, happy fourth of July. I am staying inside so far today and eating ice cream. One of my pet guinea pigs died last week and I am mainly focusing on making sure that I don’t pretend he is still alive in a weird way. Just joking. I know he is safe in heaven and going on an adventure with his new girlfriend named Kinshasa. She was a guinea pig in a pet store in my neighborhood that had to sit in a cage for a long time in close proximity to a giant snake. So it is good that she is now happy and safe on a journey with Roger. They traveled to some far away lands recently wearing cloaks and delivering a magic relic to a secret location.
Anyway I might post a new book later today. It has some crazy mad poems that people might not appreciate. But I think it is still an interesting book. It also seals the deal on what seems to be an increasingly official decision to allow myself one curse word to use publicly in full force without doing the best I can. I think this could be a good compromise for me and will help me have the strength to really prevent all the other words from being part of my speech even when I feel mad. I am not saying which word I chose to keep as part of my working vocabulary. It is still something that I think should only be used rarely and in self-defense.
Anyway I just finished an online conference and am going to try to start over with quarantining, grocery shopping, and volunteering. I also need to clean up my apartment, but my laziness has reached new heights, also referred to as Washington Heights where I live. When people feel laziness or motivation problems, it could be a sign that they are a writer or an artist who might rather create a rendition of the action and goals they imagine. Think about it. A lot of young people don’t know they are writers or creative in a visual and mental way, so they envision a life where they are doing stuff and being a certain way and then have trouble making it actually happen. But if they let themselves be themselves instead and put their idealism into poetry, then they might be more at peace and ironically get more done towards what they believe in. I actually think that despite a lot of pessimism from me and others, a lot of things in our society show that people have been winning the struggle to be themselves and help others. And God provided things like facebook and social media for all the people who are a lot like me and do better in writing than in person and would want that meaning to count just as much as anything else. Well have a great day, everyone, and remember that tomato sandwiches are yummy plus ice cream.
