Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!

   Well everyone, how are you doing. I am at Whole Foods right now and hopefully Amazon and Whole Foods have taken over everyone's lives and my life so much that they have a savings fund for me and have already ordered some Christmas presents that I will find at my apartment when I get home.  I am hoping for some Hot Wheels cars and some orange Hot Wheels tracks to make wall shelves out of.

    Anyway today I got a TB test so I can participate in a job program.  The job program is for people with autism.  I recently got marked down for autism on a psych evaluation and I am thankful because not everyone gets their diagnosis.  And girls with autism rarely are diagnosed.  And people say that it is because it affects girls in a way that is just less bothersome but I am not sure that is the case. I think all these terrible cases of anorexia and cutting and mental illness may be either manifestations of autism or the resulting breakdown from not happily fitting in society and it is a sad, sad thing.  And even for me, people might say that I don't need a diagnosis because it is so mild compared to my other mental illness but my other mental illness is probably very much because of the autism and my mental illness is really very tragic.  It really is, even though I am happy to be mentally ill because I think mental illness is cool.

   But anyway, this weekend I participated in a fundraising walk to help people with developmental disabilities and they gave us pizza and free sandwiches.  I think they were mad at me because I did not do that great at volunteering.   But I did try my best and I think that ultimately we all have to ask ourselves, okay, does maybe sarah's best not be that great?  You know and we have to say okay, does maybe for Sarah, when asked to do a certain work task, for her that means eating a sandwich? I think that is really the direction that treatment and accommodation needs to go in for me. 
    But anyway, I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving.  I am going to volunteer at a hospital for Thanksgiving and I am very excited about it even though you are not supposed to be excited at a hospital.

Happy Belated Halloween

   Well everyone, how are you doing. Today is November 11.  It is one of my favorite days.  Because it is 11/11.  And I do remember when it was 11:11 on 11/11/11.  I think I was at Barnes and Noble on that day.  That is where I used to work.

    I have not posted in a while because the internet is not working at my apartment.  Also I have been doing a lot of volunteer work.  It is sad to not have done many blog posts, because I did have a lot to write about last month.  One of the things I might have written about was how I went to a Halloween party at the Natural History Museum. I was a shark for Halloween and my costume was kind of one of those ridiculous costumes that is like a whole big costume like Eddie Murphy on Saturday Night Live.  I feel like the shark costume also had another effect of implying that I was immersed in water, since sharks have to swim in water to live, and I think that this made the natural history museum also have a Halloween costume by pretending to be an aquarium for Halloween.  Or it could be seen like a flood in the fossil museum that represents billions of years, so it is like an evolution museum dressing up as a Creation museum for Halloween.  Is that weird to think that way? That is how I interpret things sometimes.

    Anyway, I also gave out a lot of candy for Halloween.  I gave out about forty bags of candy and it went well, but I regretted not including Tootsie Pops, which is something I considered giving out and then didn't.  And then after Halloween I got a huge bag of Tootsie Pops to kind of make up for it but now I have almost 80 Tootsie Pops and Halloween is over.  So that is a little confusing, But anyway I think I have figured out that Tootsie Pops or Blow Pops or Caramel Apple Pops can make the difference in seeming like you are handing out whole handfuls of candy on Halloween.  Like you can do two snack size candies like Nerds or Skittles or M and Ms, and then if you simply add a good lollipop then all of a sudden it is like a wad of candy that seems like some kind of variety assortment.  Every year I learn something new like that.  Do y'all remember when I gave out Mexican gum for Halloween?  And I gave out Now and Laters, which are rare, and I did not do well and had too much left over and then the next day some of the candy I passed out was on an internet list of candy that people supposedly don't like. 
I just thought of an idea for a candy which is what if there was a lollipop shaped exactly like the inside of your mouth.  Kind of like a candy retainer.  In fact that could be the name of the candy is "Candy Retainers," and it is a giant mouth shaped candy that lasts for hours.